unexpecting

Dear diary, 

It's been a long time to blog now. Well.. Here is a new one.

Dear dear god.. what's doing to me is really complicated.

And I hope I could really get over it!

It's been over 4 years?(maybe) since an old "friend" of mine contacted me again yesterday. Somehow deep inside of me just want to shout out: What is your deal??????!!!' I am pretty had no idea what's going on about him!! However, I am always a weak person, and I just befriends with him again. After all , he really didn't do anything wrong other than told me to fuck off..well at least he said sorry to  me. Besides, I don't want to lose a friend who met since primary school.

Moreover... March is a really strange month.. New relationships always developed in this month...

I just hope that  I will never think about him about something more than just friends. Please god, if you really can help me.. just help me to tackle it. I'm really tired of having relationships again. It's just hurt so much I cannot heal myself, not even the others.

I really hope I could focus on studying!!! MAN!!! This sucks really!!!!

Yukio ! Rin!!! Continue to please me !!!!!!>//////<